I Made My Bed Now I'll Lie In It

About a month ago I was pretty much ready to quit cycling. I wasn't burnt out just frustrated. I was tired about being patient. I was tired of sacrificing things in general in order to train. I just wanted to see that all my work was worth something. I felt like last season, my first season, was a big ball of disappointment. Every time I raced I would end up being pissed about something. It seemed like I would train hard for a race and feel great only to make a stupid mental mistake. A lot of the time I would think about the race days later and just couldn't let it go. I would make excuses or second guess myself.

As of the late I have noticed some positive signs. These signs changed my attitude around. I know now that I can only control the things that I do. In negative situations or situation that simply didn't turn out how I wished, I must break the situation down honestly and subjectively. This means recognizing my flaws without making excuses for them and consequently working towards a solution. This also means that I must not overlook the things which I have done effectively and correctly.